Ohh boy... after so many months and so many painful emotional experiences, I finally get closer to the other end. Realizing that I have to cut off some people and focus on myself. We all know that but being pulled by emotional attachments and being played mentally I had a hard time seeing clearly. Somehow for some reason, I got a clear insight that showed me what was going on behind the scenes and I had to pay attention.
The pain was incredible because was a mix of disappointment and hard to believe because I was thinking and I was been told that they care about me.
From this experience, I take with me the lessons of never letting my base in others, listen but do me. Don't fall into their words and don't let them penetrate my brain and play with my thoughts. I was thinking I learned this lesson, but it seems that not really.
You know that feeling when you trust someone so deeply and almost let them guide you on the way, but then realize that was a self-gain and manipulation. That feeling of being sick to the stomach, then you want to pack your things, close the door, and never look back.
That is how I feel, there is nothing to be said and no more explanations.
I learn we all do, and when we think we learn it..... nooo...there is a deeper layer of it—playing more professionally and changing the game to the next level. That is how some people can operate only and to keep me more blind.
I am grateful for the Divine guidance that I receive and I can see through these games. Yes, maybe I have to fall to my knees first to feel how it feels and then to learn it once and for all.
Because all they want is my energy.
Only going through this, I can see and understand in which way people use your energy, play with your emotions, and with your mind so you will be so polarised that will be hard to see. Are they aware of this? I don't know, maybe it is a lifestyle that they have and is so deep inside themselves that they believe it to be the truth for them.
I am out... of their life and out from my old self-life.
I share with you my feelings and my experiences, being vulnerable because I know someone is going through the same and having it hard to get out, to stand up for themselves.
Now I am processing my exit from this old reality of what I was being used to live my whole life. Is not the life we were meant to live here on Earth, but we must get into these experiences so we may grow and get stronger. This is an illusion where we believe more what we see with our eyes and hear with our ears instead of opening the inner eye and listening with the heart.
I know, I will be tested again because that's how the Universe, is bringing on the path, other people with the same tendency to put us in a position of awareness and to check if we really learn the lesson or if we don't get it fully.
I feel the freedom in front of me, freedom of SELF, freedom of just being myself without taking care of other people's emotions and moods.
I have trust, I am placed in such a position that I must trust the Universe and hold the higher vision. There is no other way.
Let go and let God
Lose all of what the mind keeps as safety and trust the process.
Choose yourself even if the whole world is against you.
Trust the wisdom within and listen to your guidance.
Let people talk behind you, you move forward happy.
If you feel strange by choosing yourself and people blaming you, know that you have nothing to do with their opinion about you. Choosing ourself it may feel hard, but train that muscle to the point when you will feel empowered.
Love yourself
with LOVE
McJuliana
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